I’ve been re-watching Star Trek Voyager lately, so this has a deeper meaning for me right now.
When I started this blog I felt like I was moving into a place where I was going to be a more integral part of several groups: a neighborhood, a workplace, a church.
I felt like I wanted an online place to gather my thoughts, gather my friends, gather individual energies into a common space. A “tribe.”
But lately I’ve been wanting to journal privately again. Even though I feel really over it.
What would it mean to let go of this dream I’ve had to belong to a tight-knit group? What would it mean to just take things as they come, be alone if necessary, engage as appropriate, work the crowd or connect with a single soul as the opportunity presents itself?
Sometimes I feel young and old, wise and clueless, in the same instant.