I say child, but she’ll be 20 years old in a couple of months.
After waiting FORVER to find out if she got into the nursing program, she got a notice saying that she is on the alternate list.
At my age, with my level of experience, that isn’t bad news. It isn’t the good news she wanted, but I don’t think she realizes how often people drop out, leave town, take a job, get married, or whatever other life-changing event comes along and poof! you’re in.
I don’t want to get her hopes up again too much by saying all of that. I understand that she feels crushed, and she just wanted to know what the hell is going on in her life. That would be pretty comforting, and I can see having the school say, “Maybe…” again is not at all encouraging. Waiting some more is not at all fun or helpful.
But they didn’t say no, so that’s not completely terrible.
It’s hard to watch her go through all this. I want life for my children to be a satisfying challenge with a happy ending. I know we all learn from heartbreak, disappointment, that when one door closes another one opens, etc. etc.
But this is my baby we’re talking about!
The most creative "work in progress" house ever - Northampton County, NC (photo by Lilly Crowheart)
How do you judge your house? By its outward appearance? By the furniture you can afford? By the atmosphere contained within? By its level of cleanliness and organization?
Can a home be a tool, purposefully used to support a life consciously lived?
Some ideas I have for a new life in a new house:
- Our home is a place we belong, a safe place to rest and reflect, a homebase for anything we want to pursue and anywhere we want to explore
- The house is a solid frame through which we look at The Big Picture; when something seems troubling or wrong in our lives, we can take a moment to ground ourselves in its solid foundation and see the context to understand the true magnitude of the worrying detail
- Owning a home is the freedom and the ability to make the space in our home serve our needs – to build, decorate and adapt to create the atmosphere and amenities that support the life we envision
Chaos is Creativity - a source of joy
- Perfection is a naive and absurd pursuit – the real joy and value is in creating, adapting and enjoying a work in progress
March 30, 2011 is like a day of birth, a moment beyond which our lives will be transformed. Buying our new home is an event that no one can ever take away; it is the fulfillment of a dream. We can live that dream to the best of our abilities every day thereafter.